Spinning out of control...

I have this habit of getting a little self-destructive when things aren't going smoothly in my world. Nothing major, but I just end up making bad decisions. Once I start, I feel like I can't stop. Today I feel like I'm spinning out of control. The downward spiral can be so attractive because it feels so rebellious and on the edge, but I much prefer the stable existence. I hope I get that back soon. In the meantime, don't mind me, I'm just a little crazy...